Saturday, October 19, 2013

Dreaming of my Prince....Before I had met him!

Four year old Todd Douglas Sapp

Todd Douglas Sapp






















My husband has a milestone birthday on Thursday!  Yup, my husband is turning 50 years old!  That seems quite unbelievable.  In fact, when we ask strangers how old they think Todd is, they almost always guess that he is in his 30s.  A few months ago, Todd and I were out to eat and he was actually carded!  Someone thought he might be under 21.  That totally made his night!  It's hard for me to fathom that he could be turning 50.  But, I suppose that has something to do with the fact that I am 36.  Yup, my husband and I are 13 years apart.  And, we both had to live through an awful lot of life before finding each other.  There are times we notice that we were raised in different decades.  Little pieces of trivia pop up that we expect each other to know and are surprised when we don't.  But, those things are trivial.  They don't matter.  We are soul mates and we cherish our days together.      
      I had to wait 30 years before I met the man of my dreams.  I was praying for Todd years and years before I met him.  I was dreaming of the man God had chosen for me long before that man was free and available and ready to be loved by me.  I had to be patient and wait for God's perfect timing.  And, that was hard.  In 2002, about five years before I met Todd, I wrote about my hopes and dreams for my future husband.  I love reading it now and seeing all the ways my dreams came true through Todd.  I thank God every day for bringing me my wonderful husband.  I never, ever want to take him for granted.  So, here is what I wrote:

Jesus Is My King....I'm Dreaming of My Prince
(written in July of 2002)
     I am going to marry the most amazing man!  He will be amazing in my eyes.  I will look at him with admiration and love.  I will be inspired by him and encouraged by him and accepted the way I am - Jennifer Ann!  Our eyes will light up when the other walks into the room.  Together we will do wonderful things.
     My husband and I will skip!
     Perhaps we'll watch lightning storms and then lightning storms will be something special instead of something to be afraid of.  We will go for hikes and bike rides.  We'll look at the stars and watch sunsets.  We'll travel together all over the country or world.  We'll see new places and do new things - together!
     We'll read books together and then discuss them.  We'll read the Bible aloud to each other.  We can memorize scriptures together and help keep each other accountable in remembering those scriptures.  
     Perhaps he'll play guitar or piano and we can sing together.  we can praise our Lord together in song.  We can attend concerts together and listen to great music.  
     We will be prayer partners - for life!  I want to pray every day with my husband.  We'll pray about everything.  I can hardly wait to see God in action!
     We can do good things together like helping others - we'll be involved in church together.  Perhaps we'll go visit the elderly together or help with Vacation Bible Schools.  We'll play with kids together.  Perhaps he'll read books to kids and they'll all be around - each one wanting to sit on our laps.
     My husband and I will laugh a lot.  We'll laugh so hard together that it will make me cry.  My husband will think I'm funny.  He'll love the way my eyes glow when I'm happy.  I'll love the way his smile lights up his whole face.
     My husband can help me when I'm not so brave.  He'll kill all the spiders and get rid of mouse traps and he'll fix the cars and help put up storm windows and screens.  He'll love to mow the lawn and while he's mowing I'll be making him a special dessert - perhaps chocolate cake is his favorite too, or brownies, or pies?  I'll do special things for my husband.
     Everyday I will tell my husband I love him.  I will not let a day pass when I do not tell him I love him.  When he's away and we can only talk by phone, I'll tell him I love him right over the telephone.  He and I will talk about everything.  When I'm sad, he'll listen and he'll say what's right.  We'll pray about each struggle.  We'll be flexible and we'll make compromises.  My husband will respect me and adore me and delight in making me happy.  I will delight in making him happy and together we'll just be the cutest, smilyest, happiest couple around!
     Jesus Christ will be at the center of our marriage.  That's one of the biggest reasons why I'm so excited to marry my prince - through my prince I will better get to know my King.  We will learn from one another, encourage one another, and grow together closer to Jesus.  What could be better?
     I'm praying for my prince.  I'm praying that God is preparing him for our life together.  I'm praying that wherever he is, he is close to Jesus.  I'm praying that God will send him to me soon and that he will be the kind of prince that will pursue my heart with integrity, grace, and unconditional love.  May Jesus be his role model.   Amen

Mr. and Mrs. Todd Douglas Sapp (in 2013)

Thursday, October 17, 2013

A New Weigh of Life

Poutine = YUM!
     1) I love to eat!  I love chocolate ice cream, chocolate fudge, monster cookies, Reese's peanut butter cups, Cheetohs, Wheat Thins, Life cereal, cinnamon rolls, sweet potato fries, canadian bacon and pineapple pizza, sweet and sour chicken, Applebee's Crispy Orange Chicken Bowl, Dr. Pepper, mint hot cocoa... get the picture?  I have always been this way.  I have always loved to eat!  I have always loved sugar!  I have always struggled with overeating.
     2) I am an emotional person.  I struggle with anxiety.  I put pressure on myself to be perfect.  I want to please everyone.  I'm an introvert living the life of an extrovert and I get depleted.  So, how do I cope?  I eat.  And, it's usually not carrot sticks!
      3) I am NOT an athlete.  I have never been an athlete.  I have never had much strength or endurance.  I am an expert at excuses NOT to exercise.  You get the idea.
      Add together these three factors and what do you get?  An overweight gal with health issues.  I've been on blood pressure medication for years and have been told to lose weight (about 20 pounds).  I've tried and failed many, many times.  A year ago I was told my cholesterol was too high, so my husband and I quit eating ice cream and I hardly ever ate bread.  I was positive my doctor would be telling me I'd made some great improvements when I saw her in July.  Nope, my cholesterol and tryglicerides had skyrocketed!  Something had to be done.  So, my doctor prescribed Lipitor.
      I was on Lipitor for 10 days.  It was one of the worst experiences of my life!  I couldn't sleep, or if I did I had crazy weird dreams.  I was dizzy all the time and felt sick to my stomach.  I couldn't think straight or make decisions.  My head hurt.  I had zero energy.  And, worst of all, everything made me cry.  I was miserable and scared.
      So, my husband and I made the decision that I needed to consider the poor quality of life I was experiencing and simply quit the medication.  It took days to get back to normal.  It also jump started in me a deep desire to get healthy.  I was determined to finally lose those 20 extra pounds!  I felt driven to exercise every day.  I steered clear of anything sweet or fattening.  My friend Sheryl called it being in "emergency mode."
      I made an appointment with a nutritionist at the St. Cloud Hospital.  She told me about a wonderful resource called plant sterols.  Certain vegetables have plant sterols in them, but a person would have to eat pounds and pounds of them to get any benefit.  So, some smart scientists have infused large amounts of plant sterols into certain foods (specifically Promise Activ margarine, Kashi Heart to Heart crackers, and Village Farm oatmeal).  If a person eats two grams of plant sterols a day, they can improve their cholesterol numbers by 10 to 17 percent!  Sounds good to me!
      In addition to plant sterols, my nutritionist suggested I start eating two tablespoons of ground flax seed meal every day.  I put it on my toast, my oatmeal, and my yogurt.  Plus, she wants me to eat an ounce of nuts a day.  Cashews are my favorite, but almonds and walnuts work well too.  I try to eat only whole grains (instead of white rice and pasta).  I eat organic, sprouted, low sodium Ezekiel bread.  I eat lettuce salads (with my ounce of walnuts) almost every day.  I eat more turkey, fish, and chicken (and less beef).  And, I gave up sugary drinks.  Someone told me that lemon water cleanses your liver, so I have lemon water every day.
      My goal is to exercise an hour a day.  I do a warm up and then walk and run on the treadmill, ride my Aerodyne bike, or follow a Leslie Sansone fitness aerobic walk video.  I have 5 pound weights I lift regularly to try to tone my "Gustin arms".  And, I end with a cool down.  I still don't like to exercise; I'd rather spend my time doing other things.  But, I feel good when I exercise.  Those positive endorphins rushing to my brain make me happier!  So, once I get myself started, I'm ALWAYS glad I did.        
     Remember "emergency mode?"  Well, that lasted for a good two months and I lost eleven pounds!  Woo Hoo!  Then school began.  Once again I was surrounded by snack foods I shouldn't eat.  Once again the stress and anxiety of being a teacher overwhelmed me.  And, once again I let other things get in the way of my exercise time.  September was rough.  October has been rougher.  I have to get back on track or my health will deteriorate more and more.  I need to get to that 20 pound loss goal!
     So, I'm going to write down some tips and statements that have helped me in the past.  Hopefully they will inspire me to get back on track toward success.  And, if you're reading this, maybe these ideas can help you too!

1.  Water, Water, Water!  Drinking water truly does make a difference.  I feel cleaner, healthier, and more energetic when I drink enough water.  I get headaches when I don't drink enough water.  And, drinking water helps prepare me for my afternoon workout session.  Leslie Sansone says it's important to drink water about a half hour before you exercise so that the water can infuse into the muscle before you start working it.  Nikki Carlson has set a goal for herself that she must drink her goal amount of water for the day before she can drink anything fun or sugary.   Bob Harper suggests that everyone drink a large glass of water before every meal.

2.  Practice resistance in your life.  We are a culture so used to getting what we want immediately.  It's okay to deny ourselves what we want!  Hebrews 12:11 says, "No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful.  Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained in it."  I try to keep myself disciplined in other areas of my life besides just my struggle with food.  Some examples:  not hitting the snooze button in the morning, practicing piano or violin regularly, exercising regularly, correcting student homework on Friday afternoons instead of Sunday nights and not looking at Facebook when I have other things that need to be done.
     Portion control is also a huge part of resisting to what we want.  After seeing my nutritionist, I was amazed at how SMALL most serving sizes truly are.  Lysa Terkeurst suggests that we talk to God when we are struggling with this issue.  He can be our daily portion.  She tells about a time when she wanted a brownie so badly that she shut herself up in the closet and just cried to God until the feeling went away.  I've never done that.  But, I believe He cares enough that He would fill me up and satisfy my craving.  I just need the discipline to go to Him and not to food.  Psalm 34:8 says, "Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him."

3.  Life is full of second chances, of starting over, of starting fresh.  I have to be okay with that in my weight loss journey.  I may have an Oops day or even an Oops week, but that doesn't mean I should give up!  I need to start anew.  I may get injured or be sick for a while and need to take a break from my exercise routine.  Getting started again, for me, is incredibly hard.  But, the only thing to do is start again, start fresh, start over.  "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me," Philippians 4:13.

4.  Watch out for mindless eating!  Candace Cameron Bure suggests that we ask ourselves these questions next time we are considering eating something in a mindless manner.  Am I:  hungry, angry, lonely, tired, depressed, guilty, PMS, thirsty, stressed, dicouraged, wounded?  Sometimes defining how we are feeling will help us steer clear of eating to cope.  Also, concerning mindless eating, never eat in front of the TV or computer, especially not with an open un-portioned bag of something!  When I binge on cookies or chips, it's usually in front of the TV or computer.  No more!

5.  Be prepared.  It's always easier to grab an unhealthy snack when you're hungry.  So, be prepared with healthy snacks throughout your day.  Clean Eating experts suggest that we eat every 2 to 3 hours.  Weight Watchers suggests that when you come home from the store, you wash and chop your lettuce, clean your vegetables and chop them up and put fruits and vegetables near the front of the fridge so it is the first thing you see when you open your fridge door.
     Along with being prepared, how about just don't have the temptations in your home?  We still have a teenager at home, so I have felt it necessary to have some junk food around, but we have considerably less than we've had in the past.  Sometimes if there is something tempting, I ask him to keep it in his room.  I know that I would never go in his room to take food.  

6.  Protect your exercise time.  I have found that the best time for me to exercise is from 3:30 to 4:30 every day.  I rush home from school and get right into my exercise clothes, not even stopping to read my mail.  Some days I simply can't get home that early, and then my plan is to exercise from 6:30 to 7:30 in the evening.  That means supper has to be early enough to be digested before I start jumping around!  It's all a balancing act.  But, it's important.  I have found that when I exercise regularly, I make better food choices.  Hebrews 12: 1-2 says, "Let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.  Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."  Nikki Carlson suggests that a person figure out the night ahead when he/she is going to exercise, and write it on a calendar and not let anything get in the way of that plan.

7.  The scale can only tell you a numberLysa Terkeurst writes, "We can step on the scale and accept the numbers for what they are - an indication of how much our body weighs - and not an indication of our worth."  Our worth is measured by who we are in Christ.  I am a child of The One True King!  If I let myself get discouraged by the numbers on the scale, I spiral down and make poor food choices.  I am beautiful just the way I am.  I know many beautiful, wonderful people who would probably love to lose a pound or two and I don't think any less of them.  Why do I think less of myself when success is slow?  1 Corinthian 6:19-20 says, "Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God?  You are not your own; you were bought at a price.  Therefore honor God with your body."   

Some helpful resources I've used:
Made to Crave book and devotional by Lysa Terkeurst
Reshaping It All by Candace Cameron Bure
The Skinny Rules by Bob Harper
First Place by Carole Lewis
Thin Within weight loss program
Weight Watchers magazines
Hungry Girl cookbooks by Lisa Lillien
Clean Eating cookbooks and blogs
www.myfitnesspal.com

John Balguy wrote, "Contentment is a pearl of great price, and whoever procures it at the expense of ten thousand desires makes a wise and a happy purchase."
10 pounds lighter and lovin' life


 
             
        

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

CD Blessings

      CD Blessings:
Earlier this year I wrote a blog about the positive experience my Mom and I had creating a CD of violin and piano music together.  You can find that blog at http://journalingjennifer.blogspot.com/2013/04/recording-cd.html


Heading out to make the CD!
   I continue to cherish our experience and the finished product!  Todd and I enjoy listening to it together and I have played the CD for my students in my classroom. 
   Another blessing has been seeing the way that our CD has touched our listeners.  I am writing this blog about some of the encouraging words I've had from friends after listening to the CD.  I want to remember and be encouraged years from now by the words of this blog.
   Mom and I both wanted to be able to give copies of our CD to friends and family members.  I love knowing that my nieces and nephews have this piece of their Grandma Iverson and Aunt Jen to save forever!  I enjoyed being able to give CDs to friends all over the globe!  Angie has one in Spain, Carey has one in Thailand, Anette has one in Norway and her parents have one in Germany, Julia has one in Cherkassy, Ukraine and Pastor Pavel and Tamara have one at our Sister Church in Vatutino, Ukraine!  It can be heard in North Dakota by Pauline or in Colorado by Kathy.  Christin could be playing it in Connecticut while Patty could be enjoying it in Wisconsin!  Exciting! 
   Ladies from our church who have my CD have been so encouraging.  Jan Miller wrote to me, "I was sewing this afternoon and listening to the most beautiful music!!  Thanks to you and your mom.  Love it!"
   Virginia Johnson wrote, "Thanks so much for the CD.  It was so peaceful and familiar songs make it special.  Thanks for all you do for BBC and the Lord."
   Vernelle Stoesz wrote two separate times.  She wrote, "First a BIG thank you for the CD.  We simply LOVE it.  I will listen over and over."  She keeps it in her car so she can listen over and over without having to start at the beginning each time.  Later she wrote, "So enjoyed your CD driving to Elk River and back today.  You and your mom are amazing.  Thanks so much for making it and sharing with me."
   My newest friend, Shannon Lunser wrote, "Thank you for the CD - I'm listening to it right now and LOVE it.  It's such beautiful music."
   Linda Strater (who recently lost her Dad) wrote, "I DID receive your beautiful CD and card!  My brother and I just met on Monday night to finish opening cards and memorials from Dad's funeral.  While we did that, I played your incredible music in the background!  I can't thank you enough for this special gift you gave to me.  I listen to it every night as it brings tremendous peace to me."
   Denise Straw, Elizabeth Norgaard, Becky Kollman, Bekki House, and Terri Mason were all given a copy along with Pastor Rob and Caroline (for Pastor Appreciation Month).  I was so happy to be able to give.
   My friend Amy's mom Cindy was given a copy and wrote, "Jen, thank you so much for the CD.  What a treasured memory for you and your mom.  We listened to it tonight.  I especially like your version of "When the Roll is Called Up Yonder."  All beautiful music...such talent."
   I enjoyed being able to give my CD to Amy, Becca, Jess, and Shawrene as they are regular prayer warriors and friends in my life.  Julie, LuAnn, Tasha, and Sheryl hold special spots in my heart too and I'm glad I could give them a piece of my heart through this CD.
   Todd wanted to give a copy to his parents and to a couple named Alfred and Irene Korfe.  Alfred and Irene had a very positive impact on Todd's faith life as he was growing up.  We hope the music will bless them.
    As mentioned earlier, my CD is in Ukraine with my friend, Julia.  She wrote, "The CD is gorgeous.  It has become my morning music which I listen to while getting ready for work."
   Kathy, in Colorado wrote, "Thank you so much for the awesome CD!  I am completely amazed by your playing - it sounds professional!  I love so many of the songs you did too!  The Gift of Love is the same tune as one of the hymns we sang at our wedding, so it was really cool to hear that one."
   Christin, in Connecticut wrote," Thank you for the CD!  It's great!  You and your mom sound wonderful and must have had a good time recording together.  How fun - thanks!
   What a delightful way to share music and share God's love and share the "something special" that mothers and daughters can have when they create music together.  I'm thankful for my Mom and all the years she has spent helping me practice and accompanying me and taking time to play music "just for fun" with me.  I feel blessed! 

Providing music at a wedding in April